My two boys are now on a cruise with their father. And I talked to Big Boy on the phone. First thing he told me: “We don’t have Wi-Fi on board. It would cost 18 Euros half an hour. Do you understand, mom? Only for half an hour.” Fortunately, they won’t stay […]
Life is like an explosion. It starts like a normal Monday. But it wasn’t a normal day. I am sure you had your normal Monday coming back to work from the weekend, a bit lazy and still dreaming of doing nothing. Me instead, for the first time in my life since I finished my […]
Everybody is gone: my boys on a cruise with their father, some friends in the States, in Greece, France, Italy and so on and on. I am traveling in my mind. I was again a student, hanging around at the river in Zurich discussing with my friends about Heidegger or Derrida, smoking my […]
I know you must have felt rather powerless in many situations in your life. Otherwise you wouldn’t have made me feel so helpless talking to you. You knew everything better than me. You did everything better than me. I didn’t have any chance to do something well. I felt so worthless when I didn’t […]
Drinking my morning tea, I’m thinking how I’ll manage the new website at work and to whom I’ll have to write my first email. Riding my bike to work, I’m thinking that I forgot to tell my little boy that his violin lesson will be starting earlier than usual. Logging into my computer at […]
It has been a lake, an evening and a warm summer night. My boys and me enjoyed this moment. We three felt secure, fearless and careless. There were just a few birds talking before going to sleep. And us three looking at the twilight sky. The picture records the moment and my feelings. Fortunately, […]
7.20 p.m. in the car after shopping Little boy: “…you still owe me a new gun.” Big boy: “It wasn’t my fault that it’s broken.” Little boy: “Who’s fault is it then?” Big boy: “I don’t’ have any money.” Little boy: “Why…?” Big boy: “I already owe Dad 50 […]
7.37 a.m. before leaving for school Big boy: “Can I borrow your headphones again?” Little boy: “Why don’t you take yours?” Big boy: “They’re broken. Can I?” Little boy: “No, I don’t give them.” Big boy: “Oh, come on!” Little boy: “You’re always breaking my things.” Big boy: “No, this isn’t […]
Having feelings. Feeling loved. But there is no space to be. There is no space for love. Feeling squeezed. What stays are memories. Memories of being in one world. Having one future. Being meant for each other. Being one by two.
7.05 p.m. in the kitchen Big boy: “Good morning, my sweet little brother.” Little boy: “Mm…” Big boy: “Come to me, I’d like to give you a kiss.” Little boy: “What’s going on?” Big boy: “Why?” Little boy: “You’re never in such a good mood.” Big boy: “Aren’t you happy when […]